When does it all come together?

The pool issues have, for the moment, been resolved. All the holes are fixed, it is full (but cold) and I have already gotten pink twice. It is lovely, I love it, I can't wait for every day to be warm enough to go sit in it. Although the floaty seat thing that I like flew across the yard in the wind last night and apparently popped, but that is just a minor problem. They are cheap and I'll go buy another one tomorrow!

Monday was two weeks from when the Kathleen at Houston Surgical Associates said she turned in my paperwork. She said it takes from 2-4 weeks to get the approval. Why should it take so long? Why should I need additional approval? I have jumped through all their hoops. This waiting is driving me absolutely crazy. I told Dad that I would go to Chicago with him this summer but I'm waiting on the surgery date. I am usually quite busy during my summers and this waiting is putting all my plans on hold. I am ready to get this over with.

And I heard someone somewhere say that the first few days after the surgery are miserable. I'd like to hear more on that front. It makes me kind of nervous, not that I can't take it or anything but I just don't relish the idea of not feeling good.

I also had someone tell me that after the surgery, since your body changes anyway, that maybe I won't get these daily headaches like i've had for the past week or so.

I've been saying it for years, at least 20!! "When does it all come together?"

God's way of punshing me

Is this God's way of punishing me for not listening to my husband? Back in January I decided that we needed a pool. Not the huge built in kind, just a smallish metal frame pool for the backyard. I thought it was a great idea, something for Allison to do, fun for the grandbaby in a year or two...but it has not turned out that way! whenever I mentioned a pool, my husband would hand his head and shake it. It wasn't a right out no but I knew what he was thinking. We put the pool up and it rained. This caused the legs of the pool to sink in the mud about 2 inches which made the pool bow out at the bottom...but then the cows got in the yard and made three tiny little tears on the side of the pool (who knew cows were so fond of the taste of plastic?) I called the pool company, we were about 10 days of warranty (it sat in the box for 60 of the 90 day warranty period.) We decided to empty the pool and start over. After the pool was totally empty, it was already almost dark that night, so I though we could reset it up the next afternoon. The wind blew and the pool flew!!! Nothing wrong with it but we had to wait another day to reinstall it. And that night the pool flew again! Still, no visible damange to the metal or plastic. Last night was finally got it all set up again, put the new patches andstarted filling it with water. It looks nice. The bottom is smoother, the sides are straighter. Except for that little leak somewhere ON THE BOTTOM that we can't readily find. It seemed to have stopped leading during the night. Hubby says it is just because the water pressure is off. I didn't think there was that much water lost out of the pool.
So am I being punished?
My sister blogs here too. Well, she's not really my sister but we've kind of adopted each other. She doesn't have a sister and I don't have a sister and we both need a sister so it was a logical conclusion. For two people born of totally different parents, we sure are the same, in many ways. We are not depressed, we are bitchy. I've been on Lipitor for around 10 years. I can tell the difference when I am on it and when I am not. She's tried Wellbutrin on and off several times and hasn't been able to see a difference. I pray that she finds the right drug, for just the internal peace. Now, I know the drugs don't always work because yesterday (when we were doing the pool thing) I could have committed murder, but today seems much better.
Other ways that we are the same: 3 kids, a husband gone on business trips or on weekends (for various reasons, working or playing) but a truly blessed life. We are both kind of over weight, (to put it mildly,) educated, smart, beautiful...

The count down to RNY

Only 3 more Mondays. I can make it for the next 17 1/2 days. Then, hopefully and the insurance company approves it will be off to gastric bypass land. I am so excited about the prospects. I've read another blogger, Gastric ByPass Barbie's ramblings and she blogs so much, she's an incredible writer, but with so many different blogs, it's kind of hard to follow the chain of consciousness. But her hints and tips are great and it'll be nice to have a place to go when I have a question that perhaps the doctor doesn't answer.

I know you are supposed to try to lose some weight right before the surgery and some doctos even require the two weeks liquid diet before surgery. Mine does not. That might be bad as I have lost all the will power to even try to resemble a healthy weight loss diet. I mean, I tell myself, "I shouldn't be eating or drinking this but after surgery I won't be able to eat or drink this and this may be my last time to eat or drink this." On the other hand, I really don't think I can the first to have these feelings or to think this way...and I do think about what I will be able to eat or drink after surgery.

Barbie has some recipes that sound very interesting..some good tips and hints...am I consumed right now? You bet I am! The count down to the RNY has begun!!!

time marches on

Only 6 more Mondays until school is out. Then the hustle and bustle of a summer that is jam packed. No down time at all. Trips to Branson, Chicago, Port Aransas, Goliad, San Angelo, the gastric bypass in Houston...the new pool is up! This means only 7 more weeks of school! Blankets to make, houses to redo, a little reading now and again...I don't know if I can get it all in but I sure as heck am going to try.

I sometimes feel bad when I read other blogs. I have such a great life and I think God for the opportunities he has given me. I have a wonderful husband. My favorite thing to say about him is he makes a better wife than I ever could! He makes the bed every morning, does most of the cooking and cleaning, is great in bed, I sure am a lucky girl!

Then I have the three great kids. Yes, we have our issues now and again, the 15 year old is a little smart mouth, but then how many 15 year olds aren't a little smart once in a while. None of their grades are what I would want them to be but I can't study for them.

Is this too sickening?

I have one more diet appointment before they schedule my bypass. The last one at the end of March I had last several pounds, like 7 or 8. I want to say that I lost anything because of the new energy drink from Advocare that I am taking. But I don't want to sound like a commercial. It does taste great and at the end of this month we'll see. I have another diet appointment, then as quick in June as I can arrange it, I'll go in for surgery. It will be so weird not to have to buy all my clothes from Walmart and Target...or I will be able to buy them from the cute little western wear stores because they usually don't have anything over size 18 and I am waaaaaaay over an 18.

I have a friend here in town that is also getting bariatric surgery. I think she is going for a lap band. Then I have one more friend who will be more interested once I really lose weight. Are all my friends overweight? Not really.

I found some great games for the iphone, ZombieFarm, TapFish, and Tap Farm, not to mention a free Kindle download. Now on all those long trips I will take this summer, I will have games to play and books to read. Whatever happened to looking at the scenery?

God Bless!

What to talk about?

My sister says I should write...I'm not sure I'm as talented as some of the bloggers I've seen on this site but I'll try.

I am a 50 year old mother of 3. The oldest, 21, got married this month. Not exactly what I would have wanted for my son, but it's his life. The next son, 19, is a sophomore/junior in the corps at A&M, and having a blast. The baby, a girl, will be 16 next month.

I am married to the most wonderful man in the world! He is far better than I deserve but I am awfully glad to have him. He puts up with a lot from me.

I teach middle and high school special education in a little bitty tiny town in Texas. The kids are great and I truly love my job.

What I am totally consumed with at this time is my upcoming gastric bypass. You never hear about all the "clearances" you have to have before they operate. A psychological, (which I have done, and I am apparently not crazy because I haven't heard anything from them yet and it's been 2 months), bloodwork, 3 months of visits with a dietician, a cardiac clearance, a informational meeting with the surgeon's team, (I had to do three of those before I found a practice that would accept my insurance) and we haven't even scheduled the surgery yet! The dietician wants you to begin exercising and to lose weight. If I was motivated to do that, I wouldn't be in the mess I am in now. I have to keep on telling myself that I am not the first person who has the same attitude as I do...not really interested in this time in trying to lose weight. And the exercise! I am going to do that. I started a week ago and got all tied in in excuses not to do more (the biggest reason was the huge blister I got on my heel after the first walk in new shoes) but I plan on starting again today!

I am 5'9" and weight 280 lbs. Golly that is hard to type! I hope to get down to 170. I hope that is doable. I want to get healthier. I have no big health problems at this time. High cholesterol but that's it. I don't have aches and pains, my knees, ankles, and hips are okay so far. I want to get healthier for the new grandbaby that is due in September (hence the 21 year old getting married.) And I don't want to have those pains...ever!

Well, what do you think? Will you follow my journey?